Walk Away from Me

I see you walking. You walk away.

You don’t turn around. You don’t look back.

You made your decision. I know that.

There is no doubt left. You waited for me.

Too long you kept on waiting for me, giving me space.

But I didn’t need space. I needed you.

I want to scream. Don’t leave.

Don’t go. Please, look back.

Please, turn around. I beg you.

But I can’t. You waited so long.

You waited for me, and what did I do? I didn’t see you.

I wanted you so much. But I just couldn’t see you.

And now it is too late. I see you now.

But I waited too long. You no longer want to be seen by me.

You gave me all you had, and now you took it back.

You pulled back. Took your heart and left.

You made your decision. I know that.

Is there anything that can change that? Anything I can do?

So that you don’t walk away. So that you turn around and see me.

See that I see you, all of you.

See that I want you, that I need you.

It wouldn’t be fair. But when have I ever been fair to you?

Is that my final parting gift for you? To let you go,

To let you walk away, to let you be free of me.

Is this generous of me? Or am I just a coward?

What is the right thing to do? How am I supposed to know?

I want you. I need you.

You can’t walk away. Don’t leave me alone.

But you walk. You walk away from me.

You don’t turn around. You don’t look back.

I won’t make you. I can’t.

I don’t want to hurt you anymore. I love you.

I will let you go. I hope that is what you want.

I hope I don’t make a mistake. I hope I am not just a coward.

Please, let this be right. Please, be happier without me.

If you had looked back just one time. One glance.

I would have run to you. I would have closed my arms around you.

I would have sworn to give you the world. Give you my world.

But you haven’t. You couldn’t.

I will let you walk away. I will stand still here and be quiet.

I will watch you walk; walk away from me.

Cover photo by Diego D'Ambrosi.